The early part

This will be my first real blogging.....

It was only last week (4th Dec) when there's a huge quarrel between me n Hubby. What made it worst was he scolded me in public and shouted right at my face that he hated me. I was really devastated after all this horrible treatment after standing by him all these while though he had cheated me over and over again for the past two months! All those lies, hurt and pain that i have had to go through.

I bought the home pregnancy test kit after feeling tenderness on my breast for the past one week. It turned out Positive. I dont know what to feel looking at the result. I dont know if He'll be a good father to my baby and a good husband for me anymore. It was a jackpot! Only one try and we got it!

I left him a note on the table together with the test kit. I needed the time for myself to cool down, and to think. I left the house then.

Went home later that nite. He said he'll try not to argue with me anymore. And will be as faithful as he can be? I hope i am making the right decision. And that he'll be a great husband and daddy to our kid.

But i am still longing to know whether he still loves me! As much as he loves me when we gotten married??.....